So I leave for Miss.Universe Great Britain 2012 tomorrow morning. Rehearsals start Friday and the final is on Saturday night. Other than being ridiculously excited...am I stressing ? ... Nervous?....A little anxious? Yup. In a weird way I wonder what I've got myself into. I'm not a model, nor am I a seasoned pageant pro with confidence dripping off me in bucket loads. However, I must say that it's been quite a ride from sitting in a corner by myself at the London castings feeling utterly intimidated by the leggy beauties around me to running around Chelsea trying to find the perfect evening gowns.
At first I was concerned and embarrassed to tell people I was a finalist. I didn't want anyone to question my finalist position. I mean I had wanted to enter the British qualifier for Miss.Universe ever since I was 12. The woman who were crowned Miss.Universe were admirably confident, radiant and elevated spokeswomen. I thought to myself that one day I'll hopefully possess those qualities to compete. The fact that Vibe PR ( the company organising Miss.Universe Great Britain) saw potential in those traits, gave me a reason to question my years of obscurity and self doubts. I was flabbergasted when I opened my acceptance letter and for a short while told only my nearest and dearest. Then one day the monumental bulk of the competition hit me and for a split second I deemed myself an idiot for not blissfully letting the world know. I began telling more people and the incoming response was utterly positive. People were so excited for me and my future. With that new energetic rush of support I joined the gym and started my preparations.
PS. If you have a spare minute, remember to vote for me by sending 'vote jabeen' to 82085. All phone votes cost £1.00 plus the standard network charge. Lines close at midnight on Friday 4th May. Visit www.missuniversegb.co.uk for terms and conditions.
PPS. Come along to the event. It's being held in Birmingham at Saturday 5th May. £30 per ticket. Under 5s are free. Visit http://www.missuniversegb.co.uk/tickets-mugfbgrandfinal2012.html for details.